终于又掉了。。

最近为了退休，很多事情要做，要赶。。
在不知不觉中，压力也渐渐变得越来越大。。
又加上那件事。。
让我更加失去耐性。。。
让我更加质疑自己真的适合读心理吗？
现在所发生的种种事物，好像都在考验我。。
是吗，阿爸父上帝？

我终于不耐了。。哭了。。又哭了。。
很没用吧？ 那么点小事就能让我哭了。。
是不是很不适合读心理了？
我还能做什么？ 主，你到底要让我做什么？

PeopLe~~~

Nowadays...many things had happened...
make me stress..worry..angry..sad...loss..happy...touch...warm...
Why some ppl so boring..? nothing to do? then disturb other life~~
really dislike tat feeling...wat for?
nowadays, how the girl become like tis..?
although i m girl too..i felt ashame abt their attitude too..
last time, we never think tat ..we not be chosen by other..is other's fault..
now~~ how come? dont knw wat they think~

f6 life...reallly tough...
my result..now getting worse...
i knw that's my fault..
scolded by them...dont knw how to explain to them...dont knw how to tell them my feeling..
then..at last..still my problem..my fault...so no point to say so much...
now...i jus want to finish my job... then retired...concentrate on my study....
this time really make me..
i cant ...dont want...never get that results again next time!!! must not!
here..i m Sorry to my family member..especially my aunt n sis...
sorry that make u disappointed again...
i knw this is no use...
but wat can i do ? jus look forward..get better next time..
although now i not sure wat is my future ...
i never make joke wit my future...
thank you for the freedom that u ppl give me...
now ...i dont want ..n cant promise anything anymore..
becos i think..tht is no use for u n me anymore..
God , lead me the way..i need u ....

Here..sorry bro n sis...
sometimes really bring some trouble to u ppl...
thank you for ur caring, loving, n support..
sorry that..sometimes..i will cincai think ..or think too much...
sometimes..i will think tat...will u ppl feel " sien" to fetch me...everytime..
i knw bro n sis ..wont so "ji jiao" ...
jus..i hope tat...if really one day..u ppl got that kind of feeling...must tell me..
becos..i cant stand to heard that frm other ppl...( becos u r my bro n sis )

this all make me ..confused...
worried...
am i really ...sesuai be a psycho...?
or this is the " kao yan" for God..
training me ..?
Blur~~ i dont knw...