终于又掉了。。

最近为了退休，很多事情要做，要赶。。
在不知不觉中，压力也渐渐变得越来越大。。
又加上那件事。。
让我更加失去耐性。。。
让我更加质疑自己真的适合读心理吗？
现在所发生的种种事物，好像都在考验我。。
是吗，阿爸父上帝？

我终于不耐了。。哭了。。又哭了。。
很没用吧？ 那么点小事就能让我哭了。。
是不是很不适合读心理了？
我还能做什么？ 主，你到底要让我做什么？

PeopLe~~~

Nowadays...many things had happened...
make me stress..worry..angry..sad...loss..happy...touch...warm...
Why some ppl so boring..? nothing to do? then disturb other life~~
really dislike tat feeling...wat for?
nowadays, how the girl become like tis..?
although i m girl too..i felt ashame abt their attitude too..
last time, we never think tat ..we not be chosen by other..is other's fault..
now~~ how come? dont knw wat they think~

f6 life...reallly tough...
my result..now getting worse...
i knw that's my fault..
scolded by them...dont knw how to explain to them...dont knw how to tell them my feeling..
then..at last..still my problem..my fault...so no point to say so much...
now...i jus want to finish my job... then retired...concentrate on my study....
this time really make me..
i cant ...dont want...never get that results again next time!!! must not!
here..i m Sorry to my family member..especially my aunt n sis...
sorry that make u disappointed again...
i knw this is no use...
but wat can i do ? jus look forward..get better next time..
although now i not sure wat is my future ...
i never make joke wit my future...
thank you for the freedom that u ppl give me...
now ...i dont want ..n cant promise anything anymore..
becos i think..tht is no use for u n me anymore..
God , lead me the way..i need u ....

Here..sorry bro n sis...
sometimes really bring some trouble to u ppl...
thank you for ur caring, loving, n support..
sorry that..sometimes..i will cincai think ..or think too much...
sometimes..i will think tat...will u ppl feel " sien" to fetch me...everytime..
i knw bro n sis ..wont so "ji jiao" ...
jus..i hope tat...if really one day..u ppl got that kind of feeling...must tell me..
becos..i cant stand to heard that frm other ppl...( becos u r my bro n sis )

this all make me ..confused...
worried...
am i really ...sesuai be a psycho...?
or this is the " kao yan" for God..
training me ..?
Blur~~ i dont knw...

Unhappy~

haiz...today..mood not good..
especially this morning...
many reason...
wanna cry liew~~~~~

HEre..i want to say thank you to my bro...
although they dont knw wat happen to me ...still teman me ate lunch..
thanks a lot...

jus now...went out wit my gd fren ...came back frm miri....
we went to lim tea...then we went to "hu bing gong yuan"
em..beautiful...sunshine...
time is short...they gonna back to miri again tomorrow...
haiz....frens...all the best ya... keep in touch...miss u....

now... feel want to go Pasar malam....
dontknw...maybe i want to relieve stress...
but......

要回来了吧。。？？？

today, i saw bro 's blog...

It make me think a lot...

i think of God..i think of every dream that i hav at last time...

i almost forget abt it...

nowadays..i felt " shy is coming back soon"

The dreams she had be4...

突然，有很强烈的感觉。。想回去。。上帝的面前。。

太久了。。我一直说我要回去了。。但是一直都没有。。

明早，我想去了。。但是我又没信心。。

不敢再承诺了。。

最近，一直在想着未来。。

到底要往哪走？ 走回去直销的路吗？

老实说，真的有点从冲动。。

现在，正在努力的向前。。

已有俩个星期了。。。

希望我会坚持到底。。

“勇于梦想。。勇往直前。。”

谢谢你们。。。

YestErday...actually i felt very happy...
but becos of the service...make me unhappy...
吃得不满足，又多花些钱。。
哎...
但是，也因为如此。。让我觉得很温馨。。有点小小的幸福。。
被兄弟姐妹疼爱的感觉。。。
虽然在家也是由感受到。。
但是朋友之间，能像家人一样是件多美的事。。
听我发牢骚。。跟我开玩笑。。
知道不可喝冷的。。跟我换。。
冒着被家人看到的情况，特地载我去买我要吃的东西。。
下车帮我买我想吃的东西。。
谢谢你们的贴心。。细心。。关心。。包容心。。
谢谢， bro,ah hia, ah gor....
虽然有些事看起来很小。。但在我眼里它可以件很大，很感恩的事。。
是看你用什么心情去感受它。。

无论怎样。。我还是觉得。。这都是神的恩典。。
虽然不是因为神，而认识他们。。
但是我相信这都是神的安排。。
感谢神，让我从他们 身上学到不少东西。。看到不同的东西。。
感谢神，让我们有如此特别德兄弟姐妹情。。
求神继续看顾我们这一群。。坚固我们之间的感情。。

逃过。。。

今天中午，跟朋友去吃午餐。。。
差点被车撞到。。还好我没看到它。。不然，我可能会吓倒而停下脚步。。而不是直接冲过去。
当时，冲过去后，真的觉得好险哦。。而且车跟我很近了。。还好我真的没看到。。不然明天没去学校的就是我了。。 感谢主。。我还好好的。。

今天，下午在学校作学长团的东西。。
也不懂做么。。心情不好。。所以就没什么讲话。。
就觉得心很累。。人也很累。。功课很多。。课外活动的事也有还没做好的。。
也许就是这样吧。。有时候心情就是这么低。。
爱笑的鱼也会有累的时候。。

Hehe...19th....

Today...i ate a lot things...
actually this is my first time...
never did it before...
Actually,we went to find present...
but we cant find it...cant find wat we want..and we also dont knw wat we want...
the final decision is...eating...wahaha..
first...we go to eat Pizza...afterthat...we straight go to Mcdonald...
OH no....how can it be? 3 pack of french fried...so many... eat until very very very full...
Anyway...i feel quite happy...although it is nth special...not very fun...
But it is the first time...ate 2 type of fast foods..continuosly..
haha..thank you .....Happy Birthday...